Sunday, December 17, 2006

throwing caution... somewhere...

i'm not sure if i lost my mind or my principles. or if everything is as it should be.

i don't know if i'm rationalising or just realising something.

i wish i could figure out what i'm really supposed to do instead of flailing around like the clueless nutcase that i am.

i think maybe i'm just getting my hopes up. way up. but even a little bit up is probably silly in my situation.

i'm afraid that i will make a fool of myself by simply being myself. man, i hate that. (except for when i don't hate it)

i have either done something really obvious or i'm totally invisible anyway and it will go unnoticed. oh crud. what have i done?