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here i am again on my "alternative" blog
today i'm thinking i don't really care what anybody else thinks. i'm so sick of being worried about that. now i'm finally doing something in my life that is very much independent of most everybody that i know, which is really strange and new. don't get me wrong - those who will pray for me before, during and after the time i'm in the States and while i'm searching out God's Will for this life of mine, well, that's totally appreciated, welcomed, and hoped for.... and definitely keeps us connected (i.e. dependent) but in a way i totally dig and long for.
all i know is that this summer
will be a turning point in my life - in one direction or another. and i'm very excited by that - and kind of scared too.
but
there are times i just get so frustrated. like nobody gets it. nobody gets who i am or who i want to be. maybe i'm wrong on this. or maybe it's difficult since
i'm still trying to figure it out. i guess that's why i need to keep up with the entire "God gets it" thing and look to Him 100% on the questions like "where do i belong?" and "where do you want me?" and, honestly, any question that i have.... i should be asking Him first and waiting on Him for the answers.
it's hard when you just want to be known for who you are. not what you do. or who you know. or what people think you are about. i realise i don't truly know many people. maybe that's my own fault. and i know very few know me. (and it's surprising which ones do and which ones don't.... it's not always who or what we'd expect at a first glance)
anyway - i press on
because i'm here for a reason... God's got a reason for making me the way i am.... He'll put me where He needs me, if i'm listening. i think i am.....
spare post
The spare wheel gets the spare thoughts. Oh, woe to anybody who actually reads the ancilliary blog of the Donna Dimension. ;) Anyway, I'm tutoring a kid in math right now... and it just hits me, as I'm spending my Victoria Day doing math, that I'm doing more work on this than he is. (Believe me - right now, this is true.) And even though I'm getting paid, somehow this just doesn't seem quite right or particularly fair. I like to do things well but this is nuts. I've already studied and passed this course before... it just was a LONG time ago... but now? Well, I just need to vent because this kid is gonna get an earful tonight if he isn't doing any homework at all..... look out..... beware.... she's gonna blow!!!!!!
btw, welcome to the spare wheel.... the freakier side of the dimension of donna. maybe i'm gonna enjoy this less formal blog.... hmmmmmm right on
The Dimension Blog is BACK!
Wuhhoo - The Dimension Blog is back and running. Now, I don't have it back to it's original (or it's improved) glory yet, but all the content is still there as far as I can see. Yay!
So, I'll pick away at making it all nice again, and learning what the new features are for the new version of the blog software! Yay! This is good news to go to bed on. :)
Atlanta Trip
May I just take a moment and say that my trip away to Atlanta was wonderful? I've almost been home a week now and I'm still missing it. (If you missed it completely, I was gone from April 28th to May 3rd.) But at the same time there is a fighting chance that a more responsible Donna came home on the return trip.... so far so good anyway! Imagine what my time West Virginia might do to me!!
West Virginia? Is this something new to most people? Quite possibly... let me explain. Assuming all the paperwork comes through in time, I'm working in the US for the Salvation Army Maryland/West Virginia division. I'm going to be employed for 5 weeks basically at music camps.... they call them conservatories though, cool, eh? So I'm going to take that experience and maybe even follow it up with TMI - the Territorial Music Institute. That's something along the same lines as our "National" here in Canada.
I've got a lot on the brain, and on the heart, right now. So many possibilities, so many confusing things, so much that remains unknown... but it's also kind of cool. I might even be on the verge of taking myself seriously... that would be an amazing change, wouldn't it? Or rather, on the verge of taking what I have to offer seriously.... I probably shouldn't take myself too seriously... that just wouldn't be any fun at all if I did. ;)
Back to Atlanta for a moment... I wish I had words to describe it... and what good it did me in so many ways. It's mostly all emotion when I try to explain it... and I find that surprising in some ways, even though I know that I am pretty much an emotional kind of girl. But honestly? I'm finding that it has affected me in a way that I can't recall anything else quite getting me before... not even my first "National" experience. This is really different. And it's going to be interesting to see, as time unfolds and God lays out whatever plans He has for me, what it might actually all be about. Wow.
And in case she ends up reading this --- to Heather (who I visited in Atlanta, in case you're not Heather and are wondering who it is I'm typing to) - even still, all that I can get out is: "Thanks - I needed that."
Welcome to The Spare Wheel!
It's time to make a backup blog for The Dimension Blog, which is hosted on my main website. Since it has a horrible habit of messing up everyso often and we can't read old posts or make new ones, it is definitely time to have a spare blog on the go. Sounds silly? Sure... but then again if you know me, silly is the way to go!
As soon as the other one is back, I'll be happy to redirect you to there, as I honestly prefer that setup. For now, and all the inbetween times, this will do. :)
