plunk
and all the little wheels fell off from their cars
and all the little birdies wondered where they are
and all the singers only whistled out the tune
and all the calendarists wondered how'd we get past June
and plunk went the thoughts
into buckets that did caught
and catched and gotted all these things
that were not
[this moment of insanity has been brought to you by the momentarily insane person of me]
spare thoughts
i know i already posted on my
main blog today about feeling
blah and such, but i don't quite feel finished. so, the "edgier" or at least riskier thoughts will end up here.
most of what i have to type is likely pointless. a fruitless effort that i feel drawn to and must carry out.
things are great, but they also suck. i'm on the verge of connecting up with a community for the first time in a long time, but i'm also feeling mighty lonely. i know (for a switch) where i belong for the moment, but i have no idea what i'm doing here. i have great hopes for future friendships, but have a frustrating track record in previous and current ones. i long to find someone. the one. but how does
that happen?
i could rant about a guy or two. or pine. i could attempt to re-think and revamp my seemingly "old-fashioned" ideals... which i believe are particularly God-honouring, so
THAT isn't going to happen. i could vent about other people and how things don't seem fair. but guess what? i won't.
what i will do is this: i will trust God. i will aim to please Him. i will die to self. every day. i will wait. (i hate to wait) i will wait. i will pray. i will work. i will work hard. i will make promises that i will keep. i will say things that i mean. i will come out of myself, even when it is hard. i will remember i'm not the only lonely person. i will remember that appearances are never the whole story. i will make my relationship with Christ a #1 priority. i will remember that relationship defines all others. i will not settle for less. i will not live for excess. i will dream big, pray more, and believe that anything can happen
with God.
is that a good start?
